I get a comment post from my friend Coni to write!!! Yep I have been slammed. My birthday weekend(May 30) is my birthday. I went to Wilmington to help out my sister. She’s having multiple physical problems which at first I thought she was exaggerating until I was with her. She’s not in good shape. Please keep her in your prayers. Before you go”What a great person!”, I was totally out of my comfort zone going down there. The Lord put it on my heart that that was were I was supposed to be. My sister and I haven’t had a great relationship most of our lives.We are different people and I have been very intolarent to her behaviors in the past, she in competition with me. I knew I had to go and help her, but I really didn’t want to because my selfish side was saying that it was my birthday. I went. It was a tough,emotional weekend.
Her thyroid is messed up. That is one of the things the doctors are going to fix. In the mornings her levels are high( kind of like “roid”rage) She gets unreasonable and accusitory. It was hard to take. I heard that quiet voice say,”don’t get drawn in for a fight, she’s ill right now”. Man, that was draining. I was obedient to God. I cleaned her apartment for her. It wasn’t horrible, just a lot of clutter and dust. She, at this time, has mininal use of her arms. Dusting vacuuming and moving large things is out of the question. I took her shopping. She has been unable to work because of all this. No money, no food. Some of her friends had a small fundraiser for her so she could keep a roof over her head.(Side note- Medicaid disqualified her because of this. Yes, she getting an appeal for that garbage!) Anyway, I filled her cabinets and fridge. Her face lit up, she’s been so depressed with all of this. She kept saying” Wow, I can choose what I want to eat!” She had been eating peanut butter and crackers or cheap romaine noodles. She was so happy to walk,well, in her case,shuffle down the hallway without running into anything. I spent a day cleaning, a simple thing, but it meant so much to her. I colored and highlighted her hair. She hasn’t been able to afford to get it done in over 6 months. Not a big deal, go to Sally’s and get the color, bleach and developer. Again, she cried. She looked up at me and said,”Sara, it’s your birthday.” I told her,” This is where I wanted to be and was supposed to be.” She cried even harder. She said at one point that she could see that I was out of my comfort zone and she saw a light in me. I thought in my head, it’s Jesus. At that moment I knew she wasn’t ready to hear me say that. I finished what I needed to do,came home and slept an entire day. It was one tough weekend.
Since then, My sister has called almost every day to check in so I know she’s okay and to thank me for the food and the clean apartment. I know she appreciates it. One of her calls was a very weepy one. She had been turned down by Medicaid, the law office she had contacted to help her with disability had said they were to busy to help her and she wasn’t going to go straight to neurology at Duke but to their pain center. She was devistated.She was convinced because she had no insurance that they were trying to kill her so she would go away. I let her scream(yep, it was morning roid rage). I called back a hour later and said(gingerly)” My sister, I want you to look at one thing today positively.You may not be going to Duke the way you wanted, but they are excepting you there and will test you themselves. They will see for themselves what is wrong with you and you already have an in with one of the best hospitals in the country!” After some more tears she agreed.
The next afternoon I get a call from My sister. She was giddy!!! She had some good news for once. She was so excited, she was going to treat herself to a small burger at a restuarant called” Hell’s Kitchen”. She has no vehicle and decided it was too hot to walk to it, so she went to another little place to get a small lunch. She comes out of the restuarant and runs into Mr.Glancy. (I tell you this because he owns the law firm that had turned My sister down for help in her disability and medicaid fights.) Mr.Glancy hadn’t seen My sister in a long time. She’s thin,shuffling and wearing a neck brace. He asked her what had happened, she told him all of her physical issues and being turned down for medicaid and disabilty. He told her she should come to his office. She explained that his office had already turned her down. He didn’t know this. He gave her the name of his personal secretary and told My sister to call her and set up an appoinment with him personally!!!!! She was so excited after he walked away. She told me that she looked to the sky and said” God, is this you?” She looked back down and just as she did a car drove by with a personal licence plate that said”Bless You”. I told her you can’t get anymore confirmation then that!!! I told her to hold on to that, don’t stop praying that everything is in God’s timing and no matter what, anything thrown at you for evil, God will turn to good!!! This is a big thing for My sister. She has wanted just to take all the good parts of all religions and that what she believes. God is showing her the way. Which makes me smile. He is helping build a bridge between the gape that has always been between My sister and I. The song says” God will show a way, when there seems to be no way!”
God has softened my hard heart to my sister and is showing her, who He is. Thank you, Jesus.
